rambles.

havent blogged for quite a while. have been sleeping in class again. especially physics. and when i do fall asleep, yufei and claire will start poking me and make me wake up =/ sorry mrs chua! its not that i dont like physics, but.. dunno maybe cos im too tired=( i will try not to fall asleep!=D

i cant stand him. super irritating. keeps smirking to himself. treating us like babies. im just unlucky to get him.

i need to start studying. i keep looking at yufei and all her notes and see her study so much and i think- why am i not doing that? somehow just dont feel like studying. cant bring myself to do it. i would rather let myself sit in front of the tv and rot away like how i read about someone in america in the newspaper.

i really really dont know. i dont 'feel' as much for this as how i used to. i used to be really passionate about it and give in my best in everything. even my mum used to call me a kaypoh. used to. now, i feel so discouraged. is anyone ever going to notice what im trying to do? will they appreciate? sometimes i feel everything is just a facade. i am one, too. __ has killed my passion for everything. everything.

sigh. 5 tests next week. nothing is going really well for me. my piano technique is rubbish, i cant do maths for nuts, i cant memorise bio, im going to fail my tests, im going to fail my piano and bass exam. whee. what a life. everything is just falling apart.